and the priests will dance

Okay. Wow. The boy and I had a major moment, something totally out of a romantic comedy, with a climatic scene that even included a motherfucking THUNDERSTORM. There's an early Sex & The City episode where they talk about a similar situation: "And in the rain! Always in the rain!"

So anyway, we're no longer "complicated". We're in a relationship. It's going at a very steady pace, not accelerating or decelerating or stopping, just ... continuing. Perhaps growing, but no leaps or bounds (so no danger of falling into the crags). It's a new experience. We made a deal: I will try not to fall in love with him as long as he tries not to just run away in fear.

And he was my Goth Prom date :) This almost included a corsage ^_^ Who knew they take a week to make??

OH! And I'm moving. Not out of Fayetteville, just across town. I found a lovely townhouse near Dickson Street that's within my price range and it's amazing. Moving, as usual, sucks.

Played two parties in two weeks. Both were a lot more fun than I expected them to be.

( playlist for The Farewell Birthday Event @ Chad & Shelley's )

( playlist for The 7th Annual Oklahoma Goth Prom @ the Marquee )

you know those people who look in their over-stuffed closets of fabulous raiment and bemoan, "oh but i haven't a stitch to wear!"

yeah. well, lately i've been doing that with my gigabytes of MP3s. "oh my i have not a solitary song i wish to enjoy!" *goth swoon* well so i fixed this by taking all the new metropolis releases that i've downloaded then promptly forgotten, and just listening to them.

firstly, Psyche's Until the Shadows rocks my small self-centered universe.

second, Evil Cowards' Covered in Gas creeps me the fuck out. i mean i had to switch to Kate Bush to de-weirdify. yeah. o_0

lastly, the Re-Sample Edition of :wumpscut:'s Bunkertor 7 marks my THIRD version of this album. favorite remakes include "Die in Winter", "Capital Punishment" and "Thorns".

so i've got three shows coming up in about as many weeks:
Jul 18 at Scarpino's (Neo-Victoria — flyer)
Aug 1 at Shelly & Chad's (farewell/birthday party — flyer)
Aug 8 at Marquee in Tulsa (7th Annual Goth Prom — flyer)

in other news... you anti-tweeters will be pleased that my LoudTwitter has stopped shipping and honestly i don't give a shit, so i'm not going to bother trying some other shipping method. you wanna see my tweets? follow me on twitter. s'not hard.

in boy news... he said he's planning on telling his parents of our relationship when he sees them in person next week at the San Diego Comic Con. (yeah, he's going to comic con. oooo i am the EPITOME of jealousy.) so yeah. the part of me that thinks anything with a Y chromosome is a lying sack of worthless, emotionless shit doesn't believe him. however, we're trying to move past erm... past issues, so hopefully this will help fill up the trust bucket a little more. if nothing else, hey, free SDCC swag.

Goth Prom Outfit Update:
found the dress: cross-strap black cocktail with ruched bust.
found the corset: black and red underbust corset with fan-lacing.
shoes next? i dunno. i can't decide what to do there...

[edit] had to change the goth prom dress last minute. the ruched bust apparently was too... busty for me. so i got this instead: this but in black and floor-length and it's awesome!

Ugh.... okay, so back from Boston (flying to and from was full of FAIL. but the city and the conference were awesome) and i got to see Fizzle and his beautiful wife Iovia (pronounced YO-vah) and their beautiful babbies and ZOMG WAAAAAAAAAANT.

sorry. had to hit the snooze button on the ol' biological clock. ahem.

so yeah. came back, Boy picked me up from the airport and we went to Wasabi for dinner. my new favorite meal-time trick? sit at the sushi bar, chat up the sushi chef and then tell him to make you "whatever". my suggestion? ask for Von and do this. he comes up with some crazy awesome shit and he'll gauge what you like pretty well.

( boy drama ... ish )

and oh by the way? don't fucking lie to me. ESPECIALLY in those situations where you think you're sparing my feelings. i'm a big girl. i can take it. if i say, "hey hun? do these jeans make my ass look especially fat?" what i'm really asking you is, "do these jeans make my ass look fat?" NOT "hey hun, could you give me a compliment about how sexy and skinny i look today? i'm having my period." apparently i'm in a very very elite group of women who think like this.

anyhoo. DJed Assimilation in Tulsa last night. kinda sick of being the only girl in the boys club. i know i can keep up, but not if i'm always getting the short end of the stick. oh and even though i got the earliest set of the night, i STILL had dancers AND applause on a few songs i played. AND before i left? yeah. had quite a few people begging me to DJ again.

*sigh* DJ biz. it's a man's man's man's world.
( have a playlist )

bleargh. i drank waaaaaay too much last night and then puked once last night, again this morning and then AGAIN on the fucking airplane to memphis. total ew. it was during landing too, so i had to use one of those little bags.

i can hold food down now. earlier not so much. i've been in memphis for two hours now and my flight is delayed. not really sure when we get to board and it sounds like we may be on another tiny plane with no A/C. ugh.

just ate a bagel and yogurt. all staying down thus far. still feeling kinda nauseous and loopy. memphis made me pay for fucking wifi. boingo sucks ass. wish i was in boston now. or at least on my way.... it's a 3.5 hour trip so i won't even get there till 9pm et (assuming we are actually leaving at 4).

up note: last night the vessels of wrath show was awesome and i got to see soooo many old friends. combichrist/julien k/aesthetic perfection night before was totally awesome as well. it was highly amusing watching people attempt to do normal synthpop style dancing to julien k.

there were two particular ones who also loudly regaled their so-called hotness in the girls' bathroom. way to go girls. oh and your snatch? not so hot. never want to see that again. please look into purchasing longer skirts or shorts underneath.

also, the boy is awesome. totally puts up with some of my more crazier craziness. <3

yeah again with the over-Twittering. sorry.

first off. relationship status. on March 6th, i went on a kind of date with a boy from work named Cooper. he's as much of a nerd as me. we hate a lot of the same things, can argue for hours about some really good unsolvable disputes (e.g. i heart the Yankees, and he loves the Dodgers — NY v. LA oh my!). anyway. i'm quite smitten with him. perhaps even in deep smit.

we tried to keep it casual, then it went beyond that. so we tried to keep it secret at work. total fail. apparently i'm not so good at having secrets. it's never really happened to me before. i don't typically understand the need for them. well, we both took Friday off in order to enjoy a full four day weekend and then on that day came out to some of our co-workers.

and then i met his friends. and... wow. it was like a room filled with JPs and Yeagers. highly entertaining :)

this whole "taking it slow" and "dating" thing... it's kind of freaking me out. one half of my brain is thinking that we should be moving in like tomorrow and getting a bank account together and be like OMG we're like madly in love! EEE! the other half is all meh nice human vibrator you got there — make sure the batteries last if-you-know-what-i-mean. now, logically, i know neither of these scenarios creates a healthy relationship. but hey. it's all i know.

well. in any case. aside from my relearning how to do this whole thing, a lot of the major confusion of earlier is gone. i'm trying to change some of my bad habits thanks to him. not precisely for him, but just... well, something needed to kick me in the arse about my total lack of punctuality and yes, even that whole smoking thing.

so... can i say "boyfriend" yet?

yes. sex and the city and a few other choice "chick" shows.

nobody knows but you.

oh yeah. and i sometimes cry watching extreme makeover: home edition and super nanny.

ssshhhh! don't tell.

this morning i got breakfast in bed. again. 0_0

( May Neo-Vic Playlist )

ok... yeah. think it's bedtime now.

totally ganked from tangerinedada sooooooooo much fun ^_^
( books books books! )

wow. just... wow. last night was so amazing on so many different levels.

it's probably vain of me to say this (phrase of the day), but i really am grateful at the sheer amount of people who came out last night to celebrate my birthday with me. thanks also to everyone who danced for me (there were so many of you!) and wonderful people who bought me booze (Kristie, Lesley & Jinxie).

special thanks to Tai and Christy and Chapman for coming out. it's too rare an occasion. thanks for making me feel special.

and a very special thank you to a certain planet-saver. good times :) nom nom nom.

( April Neo Victorian Ball playlist )

sooo much fun. i got to play so many songs that i've been wanting to. and i got the props last night. i got all the mad props :)

ok so night one of trying to stretch back up to 0g? fail :(

looks like i gotta try it again in the morning during my shower (or immediately after with the antibiotic ointment. heh. love that phrase. An Ty By Aught Tic Oint Ment. love saying that).

stupid 2 gauge. why won't you get big again???

sigh. try try again. thanks for the taper, tangerinedada. i'm doin' my best.

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions.

Pick Your Artist: Combichrist

Are you male or female? You Will Be The Bitch Now

Describe yourself: This Shit Will Fcuk You Up

How do you feel about yourself? God Wrapped In Plastic

Describe where you currently live: In The Pit

If you could go anywhere, where would you go? Carnival Of Terror

Your best friend is: Vater Unser

Your lover: Prince of E-Ville

Your favorite color is: Red

You know that: All Your Bass Belongs To Us

What's the weather like: Today I Woke To The Rain Of Blood

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called? History Of Madness

What is life to you? Enjoy The Abuse

What is the best advice you have to give? Give Head If You Got It

If you could change your name, what would it be? HAL 9000

Your favorite food is: I Want Your Blood

first off, shout out to my Tulsa peeps. thanks for coming out. second, thanks to the sweet guy who bought me two martinis. i really wish i could remember your name. you're fucking awesome. thirdly, thanks Ford for not actually exploding (but coming pretty damn close). it really stoked my ego and made me feel needed.

despite popular belief, i don't get turned on by getting bruised. so, fuck you for thinking that.

hey Bobbles. FYI. had a bunch of people tell me that my [first] 30-minute set was far too short. apparently i *do* have a following.

playlist for March Neo-Vic:
Book of Love – "Witchcraft"
Seabound – "Hooked (Radical Alternate Vocals)"
Apoptygma Berzerk – "Paranoia"
IAMX – "Nightlife"
Modulate – "No Good"
Combichrist – "Joy to the World"
– AnnabelEvil & Infam0us interlude –
Edge of Dawn – "Black Heart"
Rotersand – "I Cry (Evendorff Remix)"
Dr. Steel – "Back and Forth" *
Combichrist – "Prince of E-Ville (Babyland Remix)"
Client – "Drive (Eyerer & Namito Remix)"
Faderhead – "DrrrtyBois & DrrtyGrrls"

* request (i know right. i actually do play requests. WHOA.)

zomg. i feel like ass warmed over. my sinuses have been invaded by gopher aliens from the coke level of hell. so far this week: half day on monday and work-from-home today. yeah. getting up in the morning after not breathing? a mite difficult.

i will feel better by saturday. i MUST feel better by saturday. annabelevil will be here zomg!! w00t! haven't seen her since... ravenwood? wow. july. i'm not gimpy any more annabel! yay!

i wish i had a microscope. my nerdometer would blast through the roof. i'd probably never leave my house, except to get more samples.

felt weird today (aside from sinus ick). tangerinedada came over for lunch at ROTC Grill (num num) but i didn't have any pants. >_< as in, i only have jeans and slacks from my size 4 days (loonnnng gone) and pajama bottoms from my now days that i might could wear in public, but probably shouldn't (think of the children!). so i bought pants. jeans. and underoos. yay.

also, it's good to know good ol' CSI can still get me.

...perhaps even to the point of forgetting to actually write real blog type things.

i can admit i have a problem. i am ok with this.

so... oi vej, where to start? drama and shit going down with the scene. if you know about this, i'm sorry. if you don't, you don't wanna. it's pretty stupid.

my new bff tangerinedada is about to become my neighbor as of this weekend. YAY! this means that we'll be able to use the money we were spending on gas to and from rogers on alcohol! frugal drinking buddies FTW.

last night i went to a baseball game (U. of Ark. vs. U. of Cali. Berkeley – we won in the tenth inning) with a boy from work. had drinks afterwards on Dickson St. all in all pretty fun night :) (though i'm seriously feeling it in my brainpan this morning... arrrrgghh we went all across the shelf: sangria swirl margaritas, surfers on acid, irish carbombs, sapphire tonics, then finished it off with lambic frambroise zomg OWWW MY FUCKING HEAD)

oh yeah. and i cut my hair. :-O


you can't really tell from the pic, but no, i did not cut any of the actual length. just got some major bangage. i think i look like some character off Tekken or StreetFighter or DOA. now i just need the hawt kung-fu grip body to go with it. gettin' there. lost 10 pounds in 3 months and a few inches off my waist (yay!). not much but a solid start for permanent weight loss.

i'm DJing with ms.annabelevil next Saturday here: Neo-Victorian at Scarpino's. my Tulsa peeps deathjest, angelicdemise and angelnemesis666 are coming out too. weekend after that... VOLTAIRE BITCHES!! WOO!!

( have a playlist )